So Many Emotions

I just have to say I am SO grateful that my mom chose to keep a baby book for me. I was talking to my friend Kara about it earlier today, and decided that I'd grab it and look through it. I haven't done that in a while. I've shed many tears tonight reading the letters from my parents, the blessings from Priesthood holders, and looking at the small projects I added myself. I found this excerpt from my mom's journal that she sent in a letter to my biological mom:

"When they handed her to me, I was speechless, and so overwhelmed with emotions that I just cried! We all cried! What a miracle, a true answer to our prayers!"

And upon reading through my baby book, I discovered something that has given me 'warm fuzzies' all night. I found a special letter written to me from my dad, obviously when I was still a tiny tot because he talks about my crying spell (which existed 24/7 for the first six months of my life). Here's some of what he wrote about it :

"You and I were both up till 5:00 AM. I wasn't very happy, but that was okay because you were just a little girl and I had to be patient with you. During the night of feeding I looked into your eyes and I could see the love coming from you. I felt a special bond beginning to grow between you and I that is hard for me to explain..."

Yep, from then on I was Daddy's Little Princess, and it brought me to tears to read this touching letter.


On another note, looking through the book, I kept noticing the same name in all the documents related to my adoption. The Social worker who worked my case. I typed his name into google, and guess what?! He has a blog that he is QUITE active on! I was so excited! So I emailed him, thanking him for helping my family so long ago. It was quite amazing, I have no idea why, but I feel like he is part of my life, just for helping me and my parents find each other. And who knows?! Maybe he'd be able to help me find Tawnya Smith!