Friends in high, low, far, close, wet, dry....places??

OK.... in order to have a blog, it seems a requirement that I must keep up with it. That being the case, I should be shot! Drawn and quartered! Dropped in a container of toxic waste (sadly I'm sure I could find some of that in Japan right now)! Fed piece by piece to ravenous.... unicorns???

Anyways, though I don't have much to post, I'll update those I imagine to follow my blog. Not much has changed in my life if you're looking for some spectacular events. Still have an amazing family. Still have incredible friends. And I still have an imaginary boyfriend. His name is Alejandro. He's on a Humanitarian Mission in.... Antarctica. Yup. To the penguins. I still have a wonderful job, and I'm still surviving school!

Lately I've been thinking about my friends a lot. About how different our lives have become. My best friend from high school is married and living with her husband in Orem. I remember swearing up and down to my parents that she and I would be best friends forever. As in grow old together, being second moms to each others kids. Well..... she will always be my best friend, but in a different way! I'll always love the memories we've shared, and hopefully, the memories we have yet to create. And I will always take the credit for introducing her to her man ;)

Then I got got to thinking of my best friend from WRA. Well, I have a few. But there was one girl who understood me more than anyone, and wasn't afraid to set me straight. She knew what it was like to have constantly interacted with people older than us (college) and she and I think the same way most of the time. She really is the other half to my whole. Now she lives in California with her fiance, and I miss her dearly!

I have friends all over the place, and I'm lucky to have a couple good friends still IN THE STATE! Haha, thank goooodness for the one that lives just down the street. I'd be lost without her, and her man, and her doggies :P

Friendship is so important in life. I am so grateful to my friends for always being there for me. I'm even more grateful to know that even IF friends may fail, my family will always be there for me!

Have a WONDERFUL week everyone!!


P.S.- My photos for the last few weeks!

6 Beautiful Sisters in St. George

Me and Shailey :D 

My Favorite Shot!

Motto? Theme? Life Goal? All of the Above :D

I use the saying Live, Laugh, Love a lot. When I see people with a tattoo or a bracelet or T-shirt bearing that phrase, I can't help but speak up and compliment them on their choice. I'd like to explain.

If I've learned anything in the last couple of years, it's that life is too short. Period. It can end in an instant. So make the most of it!

LIVE- I always want to live my life without regrets. So far.... well, in that last year, I've had no regrets! YIPPEE! Oh wait.... there was the drunken party with Liz..... KIDDING! (Although I would've loved to see Liz <3) Moving on... I always want to live my life to the fullest! I need to add more to my bucket list, but so far, I've paid off a car, gotten my own place, paid for a semester of school at the U, worked almost a year and half at an amazing job, written more songs, fallen in love (with crocheting!), deepened my friendships, made new friends, and overall, strengthened my relationship with my family. I have absolutely no regrets there! 

LAUGH- I've needed to laugh a lot as of late. While I try to live life with no regrets, I can't always succeed in my own life, or influence the lives of others. But I don't think I can ever live long enough in this life to have my fill of laughter. There's too little time to be sad! I can understand some tears. A sad ending to a movie, a funeral, the death of Heath Ledger, but besides that? Laugh! Smile! It could brighten someone elses day. I know that for myself, nothing makes me more joyful than to see my darling little sisters dance around with each other, laughing until they're blue in the face. Without laughter, life would be so very difficult.

LOVE- This is the most important word of the trio. While I have yet to fall in love with my Prince Charming, Mr. Fantastic, or Superman, I have definitely reaped many benefits of loving my family this year. Love is so crucial to our existence! Sure, we can live, but without love, there would be regrets, and we could laugh, but I don't think there would be much joy. To love IS to live, and to laugh.

So there you have it. My motto. My goal in life. Perhaps, once you realize how short and precious our lives here truly are, you will follow my example. To Live without regrets, Laugh nonstop, and Love unconditionally.

Live.Laugh.Love

Blessed Beyond Words

Since I decided to more actively search for my biological mother Tanya, I've had a lot of support from people in my life. And a lot of questions. Someone asked me recently if I was searching for her because I felt like I didn't belong in my family. This got me to thinking.

I am not searching for Tanya because I don't fee like a Widmer. My family is incredible and I couldn't ask for a better one. True, we've had our difficulties and at time all I wanted to do was run away.... but now? I couldn't imagine life without them.  I realize not everyone has a positive experience with adoption. I've watched someone I love dearly go through immense pain because of it. On my account, however, adoption is a blessing. I don't know much of the story behind my birth, but I know Tanya was single, and my biological father was married. From the letters she sent in the six months following my birth, she was reconciled with the fact that she placed me. Yes, she said she thought about me every day and missed me constantly, but her letters were positive, and it seemed like she was moving on with her life.

I am not looking for Tanya because I need another mother. I have an amazing mom, April. That's not to discount Tanya's role in my life, it's just the way I feel. My mom is absolutely incredible. She gives and gives and gives. Sure, we've had our differences and I've disliked her, but no one could ever replace her. I look for Tanya because there's questions I have.... Do I look more like her or my father? She says in her letters I take after my father's side of the family. But that was when I was six months old! I want to know about my history. I'd loooove to know what happened to Tanya and my dad after I was born. Knowing his name would be nice too. But overall, I'd like to meet Tanya at least once, and thank her for what she did. She gave me a family I would be incomplete without. Who could pass this up?!

Savannah- My Twin

Little Sisters Are The Best

Gotta Love The Fam :D

This Photo's So Old But I Love It!

I will continue in my search for Tanya. But not because I feel I don't belong in my family. Not because I feel like I need a new mother. Just to answer some questions about myself. Who knows?? Maybe Tanya will want to meet the family she gave me. But truly, I am blessed beyond words. Thank you Tanya!